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Michelle posted an update
Hi I am revisiting Key 4. Intimacy and relationship blocks.
So much deeper this time actually. I loved the drumming meditation Rebecca.
I chose to do this around money I know it says Intimacy and relationship blocks but thats what came up from the drumming meditation.
Anyway I understand why as my patterns with relationship is also interconnected with my money blocks.
So, from doing the exercises so far, I have come to see that because of my middle-class upbringing and being given money, like I had the best of everything and didn’t go without. My father was a good provider, but I didn’t learn to VALUE money or have much RESPONSIBILITY AROUND IT. i SAW HOW MY MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER WERE GIVEN AN ALLOWANCE and were limited with the amount of money they could spend.
My Grandfather set me up in a business and my father got me my first job.
I have had a lot of EXPECTATIONS in other people SUPPORTING me with money through my life, including my husbands. I have been CO-DEPENDANT on men throughout my whole life in my relationships and it wasn’t till listening to my 5-minute story around money that I saw how it was directly related to my relationship issues.
I also saw through the female line I have placed LIMITATIONS on what I feel I have been WORTHY to earn. Through working for a wage is really been the only way I have supported myself. I have had large amounts of money given to me by my Grandfathers in heritance and my Fathers inheritance but have not RESPECTED it. I found I GIVE it to others but dont receive it.
This is also a co relation in my relationships.
The pay off for me has been SAFETY and SECURITY and my story has been I cant do it on my own and I never have enough. Im never enough.
So my LIMITING BELEIFS have been I CANT DO IT ON MY OWN
IM NEVER ENOUGH. I will settle for relationships that I know are not good for me because of my beleif around I cant do it on my own.
I will settle for a low paying job because it is SAFE and Secure.
I will do more of the exercises and post as I go.
Love Chelle
This has been to keep me protected from my real Core belief around I AM A FAILURE. Which has been a BIG one for me.
Rachel Fairlamb2 Comments-
Amazing insights! So many I can also draw on there too. I am also doing Key 4. I am focusing on what is in my family system and Bretts family system that I need to integrate. I am even exploring what does it mean to be intimate? For example how comfortable or open I am to the possibility of physical intimate connection. There is a lot I am still processing. I am still yet to get to the nitty gritty of what my limiting beliefs are?
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Great were both doing Key 4 together Rachael. This will be good to coach each other around on our zoom call. Yes very interesting the family system Rachael. Lots to intergrate with both families. I would like to look at the suicide in my mothers line and especially with what has happened recently with my brother.
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